Act I: When I read this statement two things happened…First I had an image of someone I know that has changed her loving demeanor into an irritable, argumentative soul. Then I saw myself! Yes I realized I had come through different circumstances and shared feelings of grief, regret, disappointment, resentment and resistance. The resentment and resistance zapped my vital life force leaving me edgy, angry and extremely intolerant of those closest to me. There was tightness in my chest and throat. I clenched my teeth at night which conjured up the picture of gnashing of teeth and tearing my clothes. I cried and railed against God. Why did you allow this to happen to me?! Don’t you know I was on a good course in life?! Why the re-direct AGAIN!!! I was the three year old adult child throwing one heck of a fit.
Act II: I’m a reverend and counselor and fully human. Despite feeling all the above and not being able to clear it in the moment I knew God had a plan that was far greater than the one I had so carefully plotted. During this very uncomfortable 18 months, while alone with Spirit, I had a very productive time of enlightenment and transformation. My heart was healed as I turned my gaze from resistance to serving those around me who were writhing under similar situations. I realized I was NOT alone in my pain.
Act III: Yep…women of all ages were expressing “the person they were not” through frustrated e-mails, FaceBook postings and conversation. Spirit was shattering our earthen ware upon His pottery wheel thus breaking that which was no longer serving us. He then took our individual lumps of clay and began squeezing and shaping them into the person HE needed us to be. None of which is comfortable. Through our exhaustion and surrender He began shaping us so we would serve our spheres of influence in a positive way. Each of us comes here with a purpose and plan to do something no one else can do and quite often in our brokenness we’re finally willing to surrender to the Master Potter.
Final Recipe: Remove the root of bitterness. Apply the salve of forgiveness. Surrender and listen. Be willing to change your mind in order to change your circumstances. Allow Spirit to point, push or shove you in a new direction and finally “…be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid or discouraged. For the LORD your God is with you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9. © 2012 by Beth Golden PhD , All Rights Reserved